Another beginning

The fall semester of 2009 finally started. It seems that I have been waiting for it for so long. But when it really started, I canot help wondering why everything is so messed up and overwhelming. Planning means nothing to me right now. What I can do is just to face and handle all the unexpected problems which have not stopped emerging since the beginning of the semester.

But, I am so happy to see those familiar smiling faces again. They are so young, warm, and shining, which affect me so positively. how much I feel like being one of them, how much I am eager to walk their walks, and voice their voices. They grow over the summer and i also wish the same to me. I was lucky to have the chance to meet some of them in my first class. I am so lucky having smiling welcomes from them.

But what about my teaching? I feel a little bit slow to catch up. About three months of flexible life of thinking and writing have made me a little bit retarded in teaching and responding to students. I don't even know how to introduce myself to the students I met for the very first time. Yes, I should have written down my name on the board. Yes, but I forgot. Maybe they are still wondering who this crazy psycho little woman, shouting and making wierd jokes for them, is. Yes, it may take a litte time for them to know that I am their Chinese teacher. And it may take much longer time for them to be aware that I am much more than their language teacher. I hope that time is not for ever.